Mrs. Emilena

well i was sitting at my computer today looking at my homepage and said "oh yeah, I forgot i had a blog" sooo yeah, long time no update but here's a little one. Still at Hallmark, still loving the new house, got enough taxes back to pay off all but one of our credit cards, still struggling with school, can't wait until summer, love the people I work with, switching my major back to psychology, got diagnosed with ADHD so hoping the medicine I am on will help with school, we got a new car, traded in the dreaded Fit for a Chevy Equinox, LOVE IT it's Christopher's baby, we are both a year older, my family came to visit for my birthday weekend and it was awesome, i'm looking forward to going to Vermont for the demolition derby in July, I'm procrastinating as usual, so i'm going to get stuff done! I'll try and not wait so long so that I forget I have a blog!

New Car

so as much as it sucked having ash live with us, i do miss having her nearby. i liked being able to go out and get pedicures and go shopping... it's not the same with other people... anyway i was, sadly enough, just reading my old away messages and i remembered a lot of fun things we did... anyway nothing exciting is going on, classes (i have dropped down to part time) are crappy, im taking english and retaking java programming UGH. work is work, much better though because Michelle quit! not as good as I hoped though, I think i'm just burnt out working retail... anyway we had an awesome weekend in NY for my mom and bothers birthday, it was lots of fun.. thats about it i guess, boring

well i didnt have to do anything today so i guess it's not really a snow day but it's the first snow of the season (here at least) i have so many pics i wanna post but this really isnt the place to post a lot of pics so i'll just post a couple and let them do the talking. i have like 600 professional wedding photos (obviously i cant post all those!) and a bunch of before and afters of the house... anyway here are a couple of both!

ok so it's been a while and a real quick update. the closing went really quickly and really smoothly on christmas eve (thank goodness!!) then we drove to richmond to grandma and grandpa goldings and had a very nice christmas eve, then we drove to chesapeake and then we had a beautiful christmas morning ans then christmas night, we drove back to manassas and started the renovations and oh my goodness did we get ourselves into it. the first night, andrew tore out the carpets in all the rooms, then the next day the long days started. we worked from early morning to early morning everyday. we painted the whole house (all four bedrooms, hallways, livingroom, diningroom, basement, kitchen, everything) restained and poly'd the floors, sanded down and restained and poly'd the cabinets in the kitchen, and basically washed EVERYTHING because the house was filthy. we (Christin, me, charlotte, christopher, mark, andrew) got all this done in a week. yup. we're good. so now this past week we have been trying to get things unpacked. christopher starts school monday and i start school the 21st. i went back to work wednesday (and started my bookstore job tuesday and quit it today, i cant survive on just that job so there was no point in me keeping it when it pays more than $2.00 less than the Hallmark job.) so i am going to embrass my job, pick up more hours, and get our house all done (or as close as it can be for now) so thats a quick update. soon i'll post before and afters!

so my Christmas spirit has greatly improved! we still haven't closed on the house but all things happen for a reason! so the two things giving me the "bahumbugs" were working christmas eve, and not closing yet, BUT now it looks like we are going to close on Christmas eve! so bonus, i have to take the day off, they can't say no to that! and we get our big christmas present (the house) on christmas eve! so after that and watching the Grinch, Rudolph, and elf, i'm excited about Christmas! :)

soooo grades are in and turns out i may not have found a major thats right for me.... B-,C,C, and in my java programming class that was torture for me and that i couldn't stand and learned nothing? a D. yep, a D. which, since it is part of my major, i have to retake. yep, retake. so again, i am lost and confused in the educational part of my life. i hate school... on another depressing note, we had to postpone our closing until Monday because the appraiser didn't get over there in time.... so... yeah, we had to cancell all the people we had coming this weekend to help work on the house, i worked to get the weekend off and now i have to take back all my shifts and try and get Monday off which is like 2 days before Christmas and probably not going to happen soooo... yeah... bahumbug!

(for the record, right off the bat I hate Oprah, but I just read an article about how she just realized she gained her weight back)
so yeah, not all of it, but enough, and i am ashamed to say it. i have been ignoring it and so starting yesterday, i am back on "the diet" hard core. It's a crappy time of year and a stressful time in life to be starting but it has to start somewhere. so good news is, i think I lost already based on when I weighed myself a few days ago... but still not good. it's so disappointing that i had accomplished so much and i let myself get back to gaining.... anyway i'm going to try and stay positive. the good thing about dieting for me is that by the end of the week i'll feel like a size 2 and i'll be sooo happy lol yeah i'm weird... anyway so this is getting ridiculous but .... here we go AGAIN!

so yeah i should read my previous post before I post because i'm not sure what i said last but anyway, things are going well, we are working on financial paperwork which is never ending. hopefully after tomorrow, we can be all set and just waiting for the closing! they are going to start showing this house, i am actually waiting for the Realtor now to pick up a key so he can show it. i took most of this week off to study and exams but turns out i have only 1 exam this week and the other three are on the 15th. so yeah, lots of free time to get things done. i need to get this house ready to be shown and i need to get my car inspected and paperwork done and all that jazz.... so anyway christmas is coming, i think im done with my shopping and wrapping except i am still waiting for my wedding pics to come in, that should be at the end of the week... so i still haven't heard back from the job, i called today ad he said he's stll waiting to find out if the girl is leaving.... so im kinda bummed cuz we cant decorate for christmas cuz we're gunna be in the middle of moving. anyway... yeah so im jumping topics really bad so i'l write again later

so my last post was about me feeling like i was missing something and I think I have found something. it's not completely what i had in mind but it is something i am really excited about and something i have always wanted. we had our house inspection on Friday after a nice visit to Chesapeake and a nice turkey day at aunt Pams. it went well, he said the house was in good condition, in need of TLC... but.... we need a new furnace :( he estimated about a $4,000 purchase.. so we got discouraged and thought about it and decided we love the house too much to give it up so we decided to make it work. there is a good chance the house warranty we are getting will cover it but we wanted to be prepared if it didnt, so we have a back up plan and we are continuing with the house! anyway, sidetracked, this house has an amazing layout and it's big and the yard is nice but the house is filthy and only ONE room isn't painted green (and i mean everything is green, bathrooms, inside closets... you name it, it's green) so this is our new baby and our new home and i am so excited to sink my time and effort into this house. i have picked out so many paint swatches, and i am so excited to make this my design project. OOO and a total bonus, I'm not sure if i mentioned this in a previous post, but all the carpets are green excluding the downstairs which is a dirty tan, we were planning on redoing them all in pergo flooring (an expensive, there for lengthy process) but to my surprise and delight, while the inspector was inspecting i went upstairs and pulled up the carpet in the master bedroom and what did i find? GEORGOUS hard wood floors!!!!!!!!!!!!  and they are all through the house!! so yeah that couldnt be more amazing news and now we just need to pull up the carpet! so anyway we also found out that chris' sister and husband got approved to build their house so we're helping them move this month too. this month will be insane! we have a wedding this weekend, christin moving weekend after that ( and she lives 6 hours away), we have the closing the weekend after that and then christmas after that and then we're moving/cleaning after that!! december will be crazy, fast and awsome AND it's the last week of classes this week and then finals and I am done with my first semester at GMU. AND hopefully i'll find out if i got that job monday!

so i have so many amazing things in my life and i am so lucky to have all that i do.... but i feel like i am missing something, i feel like i don't fit. i am not the 'housewife/stay-at-home-mom" type a person, and i do NOT like school, i only do it because i feel like i need to... anyway, i want to have something i am passionate about... like i have 2 friends who are talented, one draws and the other does like photography and pottery... and you know, they aren't necessarily going to make a career out of it, but they are taking a chance and they are passionate about it... i want something i can be passionate about.... so i am on a quest to find my "thing", my purpose..... anyway it's late and i'm rambling ... so and side note, our inspection got postponed because the people didn't turn the water on yet :/ grr anyway so hopefully Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday.... soon! cuz i can't wait to see the house again, we kinda forgot what it looks like lol